I have been neglecting you

But maybe I won't anymore.

I'm tired of caring

Why do I bother caring anymore. I seriously think I am fucked. I end up caring about people and in the end... it ends up hurting me.

I am fucking tired of caring.

I just want my woman.

4 more weeks time.

I am so ready to leave.

So I can stop caring. I just want to really stop caring.

Is it really insanity?

Lately a lot of people are questioning my judgment. They think I'm quite insane for deciding to move across country in roughly one month.

For once, I'm 100% sure of my actions. There really is no unknown in my decision.

You want the run down? Here it is, you get to be in my shoes.

You have a friend of the opposite sex... or of the same sex if that is your fancy... for this case it will be a female.

You have known this friend for about 3 years and have always had a strong connection with her. The both have you have been the voice of reason for each other and have been there for every fleeting moment of sorrow or joy. You also know this person so intimately that you really can't seem to take your mind of them.

She makes some bad decisions, but you still feel this way.

Then you find out... after 3 years... that she has felt the same way. She sat back and watched your downfall and rising for the past 3 years.

You are presented with a problem. She lives 3400 miles away.

You find out she has given up on dating and such there, and is sick of people and finally sees the person she has really wanted to be with... is 3400 miles away.

Now, the entire internet just gasped and went, "You fucking moron, don't move across a continent for a woman, even if she does love you to death... there is a slew of things you need to consider."

Well, I did.

Moving there, I would have the woman of my dreams. A quiet home in the country far away from people, and yes, it's a home not a trailer fucksticks. Simple life with someone who loves me.

Oh and for work?

How about Job Opportunity at Google's Engineering HQ... or if I really need to, I can telecommute with Symantec.

If not?

I can repair computers around the town I will be in. Sure there is only 400 people there, but they all have to drive over an hour to get their computers fixed and then get raped with charged.

More importantly...

I don't even have to work, if I don't want to. I will have enough money in tax returns to cover my expenses for about a year. I'm pretty low budget.

I'll have the great outdoors, friends, a love of my life, a house, a family... I'll have everything.

The stars have aligned and for once I'm not letting an opportunity pass me by and I'm taking it. I'm going forward in life for the first time. Not taking 20 steps back.

Now, it's more of a countdown.

A new begining

It's been a while since I have actually let the internet know how I feel.

Everyone knows that the internet is a cold harsh place, where people tend to not care for the endless much that is slung about the tubes.

So here I am. I plan to bring you every day life, interesting tech bits, maybe some humor... maybe some tears.

I've lead an interesting 27 years so far, so I should have plenty to say about nothing and nothing to say about everything.

For now?

I'll just sit back and wait.